You're Forgiven The Moment u Asked for it

U know, dumb. Why am I able to forgive you.

you're young..
you're playful..
and.. you're my dumb..

its a good time to grow up.. and the decision u make.. determines how grown up u are.. really.

For my dumb.. my one and only dumb

dumb.. today u know when i 1st go ambush.. i totally low morale.. i think quite obvious.. so i told bernice.. i wanted someone to talk to.. cos i feel damn low..

and ya.. like over the phone wad i promised u.. if i hear the 3 words from you.. i'd quit dota.. i promise you..

dumb.. u wanna ren xing.. go and ren xing.. slowly clear ur thoughts.. but.. stay with me and ren xing can..

u blur le.. i'll guide u
u lost le.. i'll find a way out for u
u tired le.. i'll carry u out..

just dun leave me alone..

10.16am..

dumb.. its 10.16am. i slp 2 hrs only.. u know u ask me to take over ur shift.. den i say no.. cos you need e money.. den u dun wan reply le..

dumb.. u know.. within e 2 hrs.. my mind replay a same dream, or rather nightmare, over and over again..

"she dun wan me le"
"she dun wan me le"
"she dun wan me le"
"she dun wan me le"
"she dun wan me le"

now u know.. wad im thinking..

The aftermathe

u know dumb.. its 5am now. i just finish talking to u. over tt super chat..

i think i'll call u at 7.30am.. cos i cant slp.. u know i cant slp..

to be frank with u.. i sorta have 3 r/s. one with the girl at lemozione. one with peiyu. and one with you.. all 3 i really fu chu alot.. cos i dun think there will ever be a girl who will love me more than i love her. i thought that you might prove me wrong..

but i was wrong. i was wrong at wrong. haha!

you know.. i told u a lie just now. we wont last more than 2 weeks.

my past was a bad one.. present is going bad.. we'll be breaking soon.. u know why i wanna go taka see u.. cos i wanna see u.. if i see u tmr.. we'll have a chance.. if i dun see u tmr.. we dun stand a chance.. correction.. i dun stand a chance..

能多讲几句话算几句话
能多看一眼算一眼
能多抱一下算一下
能多亲一次算一次

sounds like im going to die like tt. but tts the fact.. really feel like dying.

today while working.. i look at someone.. den i was thinking.. wa.. if got tt girl also not bad.. can do max.. 事到如今 i already dun dare ask for more.. dunno which day you will tell me.. lets break..

本来不觉得你特别疼我

直到你不再疼爱我

以后已经过去

雨伞和雨衣不会再庇护我

本来不觉得你特别疼我

直到你不再疼我以后来不及了

手写的留言对象已经不会是我

all i wanna do is tell u..

dumb.. dun play me le can?

dumb.. bu yao ren xing le can?

dumb.. wo yao ni de gan qing can?

please...

1st post

you know dumb.. sometimes.. im not sure wads going on btw u and me.. you know.. its not the kind of "orh.. dumb nvr do this this for me.. dumb nvr buy that that for me".. its the kind of little things and the little reactions that i observe.. im nvr really observant.. but.. well.. so this morning i raised an amber light to you... i said.. dumb.. i feel that i've become less impt to u..

so now its 2.17am. u juz came back fm msia and having dinner at.. say.. 1am.. den you'll call me after finish.. i know u maybe having discussion.. but isnt it better to tell me not to wait for u as you're discussing?

or issit u too tired slp le? or issit u no quarrel with family den dun feel like picking up my call?

dumb u know wads going on.... im.. tired..

remember u told me you're afraid tt we'll break cos you maybe ren xing.. i was happy to hear.. bt.. well.. nvm.. u called.. =)